I believe that the one for you is him who is the

physical manifestation of Jesus to you

-- chat with muts today

LET GO

As soon as I stop worrying,
Worrying how the story ends
I let go and I let God
Let God have His way

That’s when things start happening
When I stopped looking at back then
I let go and I let God
Let God Have his way

There’s so much going on
Sometimes I can’t find my way
And often times I struggle
Struggle from day to day
I have to realize that it’s not my battle
Not my battle to fight
I have to know if I put it in your hands
Everything will be alright

-- I have a story that comes with this. Will post it soon :) 

NEW YEAR

          I’m officially back in VA. It took me 2 weeks and some days to really settle in again. My trip to the Philippines was surreal. Everything happened so fast (although at that time, I really think it was very slow). I have to get use to the idea that dad is not with us anymore. I have to constantly remind myself not to include him in my daily devotions. There are times when I just think about him and feel a little sad…

          It’s been a long time since I last blogged… I just turned 27 and also 7 years with the Lord. Both are major turning points in my life. (oh yeah, I now have a car here! – a gift to myself for both occasions.)

          I was just reading my past blogs and it made me look back at those times when dad was still with us and how God carried us through. God is faithful. And although I won’t be able to celebrate Christmases and other special occasions with dad, I still believe he is in a better place. He is with the Lord!  Only a few of us can say that… I am thankful that God used dad’s sickness to humble him and through that, accept Jesus in his life…

         I am re-starting my life here in Virginia Beach and I’ll be moving out soon and will finally have my “own” place. I am so excited! Help me pray also for church. I am currently attending a COG church here, yet I don’t feel like I’m growing as much as I would like. I know, I know, it’s not about the church… But it still plays a major part. I’ve been trying to talk with the Lord about changing church but it just doesn’t feel right to leave the church where I am now…

It’s the start of a new season and a new year for me!

It’ll be an adventure! Wait and see J

Definitely, Maybe

          I just went out with my girlfriends and watched a chick flick. It was a great movie --- the type that you’ll watch again when you feel depressed and hopeless WITH love. We had lunch and started the usual girl talk. Over ice cream, they started to talk about their “story”. How she met him and how he met her, how it just happened and how they fell in love and all that… Then it was my turn to tell the story. I’m not the typical person who opens up my story. If you know me at all, you’d know that I’d rather not talk about my last relationship. So there we were, them waiting for a story and me trying to find a way to dodge off telling it…

          In all these, I know that I’ll have my story one day. A perfect story like no other. How we met, how we were just friends and how it just led to a love that’s so unexplainable… The type where we just have to live with each other and wake up next to each other every morning for the rest of our lives. But right now, it’s a story that’s waiting to happen. I know I’ll have that chance. But not just yet…

AN EMAIL TO A FRIEND

Hi ____!

Thanks for sharing that… I’m praying for you. Be assured that you are not alone and that relationships like these have to occur for us to choose to lean on God more.. Sigh.

I just wanna share what the YA pastor shared last night sa service. The topic is about Sex and the Scriptures. Medjo timely sya sakin in away kasi I've been longing for a "husband" to be to come along and medjo I'm sick of waiting and sick of being the odd man out with out someone (gets?) Anyway he shared that we should stick to the "PLAN"

PLAN - If you stay pure and you stay patient, you will be blessed.

That's a good plan! but what the enemy wants us to do is

- to lower our standards and soften our convictions.

We all have convictions as who and what should we qualify for a husband to-be. and sometimes when we are caught off guard we lower or bend our standards and convictions. But that's exactly what the enemy wants... because we end up settling for what is right in front of us. and who is here right now...

I'm not sure why I'm sharing this pero I'm believing na nagungusap sya sayo in anyway.. so ayun..

I guess that preaching helped me be "born-again" in the area of waiting.. kasi I realized that the enemy is trying to rob our hope... By robbing our hope we slowly give in to the right-here, right-now kinda thing and also bend our standards... so medjo I am in my walk with God na its ok for me to wait :) kasi even though before I know na its good to wait, I haven’t really grasped how it works...

Now that's out..Ako, I’ve been great for the past couple of weeks. I am fasting right now for 21 days for God’s fresh vision and mission for me this 2008. Medjo late nga dahil usually I do it before the year ends.

Alam mo yung feeling na I don’t belong here yet when I look back and ‘see’ myself in the Philippine setting parang I’m not part of it anymore? That’s what I feel right now. Althou I’m not from here, I feel that if I think of myself na nanjan, na I don’t have a place there anymore.. so ayun.. I wanna, ika nga, play it by ear. I want to know what God wants me to do before I do it.

Keep me in your prayers. Include my dad as well.

please update me how things are with you..

miss na kita _____!

love u

erene